A LITTLE MORE ON CELLULITE

Raechelle's comment has prompted me write a bit more on my "cellulite experience". Feel free to tune out if this isnt your cup of tea.

Yep I had it and I had it bad. Even standing up straight I would be lumpy all over the backs and sides of my thighs and even worse on my bum. Being an aerobics instructor made me really self conscious about it. Only once did I wear shorts that covered my thighs but then rode up during the class to reveal my ugly legs. I almsot died of shame and embarassment and vowed to NEVER bear my legs above the knees again.

When I decided to compete I worried quite a bit about whether I would ever get rid of it. If I didnt then I'd just resign myself to the fact that despite all my efforts I just wasnt up to scratch and maybe it would me longer to get there. Luckily this wasnt the case.

I truly believe that my celluilte went as a result of 10 months of good hard training and eating clean MOST of the time. I wasnt a saint. In fact far from it. I fell off the wagon MANY times but I always picked myself up and got back on. Quitting was NOT an option. Imagine my delight when I checked out my legs probably a couple of months out from the show and saw that they were smooth. Even though I didnt have the best legs at either of the shows I did (needed better glutes and hammies + still carried a bit of upper thigh flab), at least I had successfully shifted the cellulite.

My advice to anyone thinking of or planning to compete (and who worries about this) is to start thinking of yourself being in comp prep from now. Clean up your diet (just dont be too strict this far out) and train as hard as you can. Aim to never miss a session if at all possible. Give your body time to rid itself of that potentially hard to shift fat. And then reap the benefits of all your hard work.

I might be a bit podgier around the middle than I have been before (I'm also over 40 so I think that's playing a part in it) but my legs have NEVER looked this good so I take comfort in that.

Good luck ... no thats CRAP ... Train hard. Eat clean. It'll happen and its not dependent on luck.

Cheers

Magda

CHANGING ONE'S THINKING

I’m realising that to succeed in losing body fat without resorting to the strict diet (low cals and low carbs) one has to consciously change one’s thinking. Here is an example of the conversations between “Desperate to Lose Weight Magda” arguing with “Determined to Dump Bad Old Habits Magda” yesterday:

“This just isn’t working. I’m making no progress. I might as well have a yummy cake to console myself”
“You know its going to take time. You expect things to happen too quickly. You’re eating well and feeling very satisfied so how can you expect the weight to drop off like it does when you’re virtually starving yourself? Plus you know the cake isn’t the cure for how you’re feeling”

“God I’d give anything to drop this weight around my middle and QUICKLY. I’ll just cut my carbs right back and my calories down and all will be sweet. I can do it. I’ve done it before and I know it works”
“You idiot! You know what happens when you do that, don’t you. BINGE CITY hello I’m back!! Trust Liz and stop thinking that the short term fix is going to work. Your track record has proven that it DOESNT”.

And variations of this went on all day. But over-riding all this, I actually sat with the bad feelings acknowledging that yes I was having a down day and not feeling so good BUT turning to junk food would not change that (past the 5 minutes of oral satisfaction anyway) so what was the point?

Of course Liz came to my rescue in the form of an excellent email which brought back to memory (another) HEEEEUGE achievement I made last year. (Sorry if this is a bit yucky to read about).

For as long as I can remember I’ve carried cellulite on the backs and sides of my thighs and on my bum. Even when I (sometimes) lost weight, the cellulite never budged. I hated it and was really self conscious about it (as you can imagine). Well last year the intense weight training and pretty gruelling cardio melted it away (from my legs) and I would regularly admire my new smooth look legs in the mirror. (I still have a bit on my bum but hey I’m a work in progress). Even now with my legs not as lean as before it hasn’t come back and this makes me REALLY HAPPY.

So here I am today and I’m feeling fantastic again. I’m back to my happy, bouncing around smiling old self and not letting little crap like the skirt incident ruin a day for me. Yes I’ve chosen to wear something I really like and feel good in and it makes the world of difference. I weighed this morning and the drop on the scales was negligible and I DIDN’T CARE. I’ve measured my waist (and everywhere else) so I’ll know when the cms go but again my happiness will NOT ride on that.

Finally I’ve taken 2 giant leaps forward and not because I lost however many kilos. Before I sign off I’d like to say that if you don’t read Liz’s blog, YOU SHOULD. Check the link on my side bar and get ready to hear some really good advice.

Cheers all

Magda

PS Thanks for all the comments of support and encouragement once again. Its nice to know that when we stumble there is always someone out there who helps us back up again :-)

THE ONE ABOUT THE MINI TELETUBBY

I was a bit undecided about what to wear today but wanted something nice and colourful as I was in various shades of grey and black yesterday. I have a really nice DKNY red skirt that is quite straight fitting. It was sitting on the shelf in my WIR with the other clothes which were too big for me as I got closer to competing. Its not a tiny skirt – probably a size 10 (I’m not sure as I bought it in Singapore some years ago).

I went to put it on and it wasn’t slipping on easily. I went to do the zip up dreading the inevitable “its too tight feeling” and yep there it was that “too tight” feeling. In fact I looked like an overstuffed sausage in it and quickly took it off and put on a skirt made from stretchy fabric with a drawstring waist.

So all day I have been battling my negative thoughts about my weight and the way its just settled around my middle and doesn’t seem to be moving. I know its early days and yes I am the epitome of impatience but I feel like there’s nothing happening and this is depressing. Maybe my body can only lose fat on less calories or maybe less carbs or gruelling cardio every day? I’m not sure but I’d love to feel like a bit of the midsection podge was going.

I guess I’m so used to dieting more strictly and therefore getting visible results quicker that this new way of eating for fat loss is quite foreign to me. I also know that its feelings like these that lead me into my danger zones where overeating becomes a real risk. I know from previous experience that 99% of my overeating episodes have stemmed from emotional reasons and not hunger. I think this warrants a discussion with Liz.

Finally before I sign off I just want to clarify that I’m not pining for the body I had at competition time. I fully understand that its not possible or healthy or practical to maintain such a low level of body fat. I would however like to shed 2-4 kgs especially around the middle where I’m feeling like a mini teletubby.

Cheers all

Magda

MONDAY MUSINGS

As expected, last night’s dinner was delicious and even my WH complimented me on it saying it was very tasty and enjoyable. I know that he’s often disappointed in what he eats when he’s trying to lose weight so this was a big compliment indeed. Plus its so much better when we’re on the same wave length. I’ve even got him using Calking which he loves.

So another working week has kicked off with my usual 5am start. This morning it was run/walk combo followed by lower body conditioning. It was another good session and again, all my training is done for the day. I am a bit tired though and have been yawning heaps. Nothing that some earlier nights wont fix though. My body-clock is a bit out of whack after being on holidays and sleeping in later and going to bed later too.

So what does this week hold for me?

1. Work. Say no more.

2. WH flies to Brissie on Wednesday afternoon and I am “free” for the next 4 days. I’ve checked out my gym’s group fitness timetables and have marked a few classes I’d like to do. What a luxury!! Going to the gym after work or whenever I feel like it on the weekend.

3. I’ve tentatively arranged a night out with the girls on Saturday. That’s as far as those plans have gotten. Whatever we do I know it’ll be a dry night for me coz I’m enjoying not drinking now.

4. Then on Sunday the Adelaide Figure Girls are meeting for brunch and I’m REALLY looking forward to that. Its my chance to talk all things competing, training, bodybuilding etc with like-minded people and I love it.

5. On Sunday night my WH comes home with our BS. That’ll be nice and I’m hanging out for the biggest squishiest hug in the world.

6. I guess I’ll have some opportunities to catch up with some of my other girlfriends but I’ve made no firm plans as yet.

Well things are going good for me and I’m feeling much better than I did through December when my diet was poor and my training was inconsistent. Liz has me on higher calories, higher carbs and my body is liking it. Its early days to see what the scales and tape measure are doing but I remind myself daily that I don’t look bad. Yes I’ve looked better and I will look better again but I have a fair bit of recovery to do before I get there. At least I’m enjoying that journey now.

Cheers all

Magda

A LAZY SUNDAY + PLAYING THE DOMESTIC GODDESS

I'm a bit embarassed to say that I'm quite enjoying being childless ... for now anyway. The house is quiet which is unusual but I'm liking it. My time is mine and I'm not feeling guilty that I should be doing more with my son. BTW he's having a great time with his grandparents so its a relief to know that all is good for him.

So today mum and dad took me to the Torrens Island Market to shop for fruit and veg. I've never been there before ... not sure if I'll go again. Then I did some domestic chores (which never seem to come to an end) and then kicked back and read my latest copy of Oxygen ... which has been sitting on my bedside table for several weeks.

I have a prescribed day off training today which is very unusual as last year the only days I didnt train were holidays away, when I was (rarely) injured or when I was completely exhausted. The norm was to train 7 days a week. So I'm mosying around feeling mildly guilty and uneasy, feeling like I should be training. But I did as prescribed and took the rest day. I have some abdominal DOMS from yesterday but its not serious. Although having said that now, I wouldnt be surprised if Liz upped the ante just to really fix me!! LOL

Now I'm not the sort of person who can sit around for long periods of time when I'm at home so I ventured into my kitchen to dabble in the Domestic Goddess world. I have made some salt-free stock from chicken bones and vegetables. I use this to "stir fry" my veges in instead of oils. The stock makes a great base for anything you might like to add like Tamari, ginger, chilli, lemongrass etc. The list of possibilities is endless. Its also nice to add a (controlled) amount of a good quality oil to the finished dish with lean protein, some brown rice and VOILA!! a clean meal :-)

Tonight's dinner is Gemfish Fillets with Anchovy and Caper Paste.

Here is the recipe I'm using for 2 serves:

50g sundried tomatoes (Freezedried pack with no added oil) reconstituted in a little boiling water and drained
20ml (1T) olive oil
1 shallot
2t capers
2 anchovy fillets drained
a handful of continental (flat leaf) parsley
1/2t lemon juice

Process in a food processor and serve with the grilled fish. Its that easy and very tasty (if you like tangy salty foods)

I'm also making a salad of roasted pumpkin (no oil just sprayed lightly with cooking spray), spinach leaves, more fat free sundried tomatoes, toasted pine nuts and reduced fat feta. No dressing (it doesnt need any) just mix it up well and VOILA!! This is a delicious salad that WH just loves when he gets a bit sick of the (old faithful) tossed salad.

So after posting all that maybe my Sunday's not so lazy after all :-) But I like it like this.

How's your Sunday going??

Magda

OMG I THINK LIZ IS TRYING TO KILL ME

This morning I headed out to do my "Footy Field Workout" except before I even got to the footy field part of it I had to do a heap of jogging/running + a little sprint. So I arrive all buggered and then have this GRUELLING workout involving lots of jogging and sprinting (dream on!! I just didnt have it in me!!) and conditioning work. The whole session took well over an hour with warm up and cooldown included and it was as hot as and the flies were wretched. I even swallowed 2 on the sprint legs (I guess a little extra protein wont hurt LOL). But the best bit (yes there was one after all that grizzling) was that I burned 545 calories during that session. WOOHOO I'M HAPPY WITH THAT!!!!

In fact right now I'm pretty happy with everything. I feel good physically. I feel great mentally and I feel so in the zone that its actually a bit scary. Scary because I dont want to come crashing out of it (like I have heaps of times before).

Today I trawled around my local Westfield determined to shop up at the sales (without having to darg my BS around with me). I scoured every fashion and shoe shop and tried on at least 10 things and bought ...... NOTHING ...... ZIP ..... ZILCH. :-( I must admit I find that Westfield totally uninspiring and I was disappointed in the venture.

Although we are childless we are having a quiet night in tonight. We have freebie movie passes but the films we want to see arent on the free list (yet) so we'll wait a bit. That also means the Thai dinner out is on the shelf for now and it'll be 100% clean eating day with no alcohol yet again. I'm liking this new system!! In fact WH has just finished his second cardio session for today in an effort to win our family's Biggest Loser - Fiji Challenge. Go WH!!!

Hope everyone's weekend is as good as mine.

Magda

FIRST WEEK ROUND UP

I’ve just come to the end of my first week (well 9 days actually) of training with Liz and living my new healthy and clean eating lifestyle. Here’s how I went:

1. I lost 2.2 kgs but most of this was just post Christmas bloat – but still better gone than sitting somewhere on my body.

2. In the 9 days I ate out 6 times and had 1 celebration at home. This makes point 1 even more amazing!! Whilst I didn’t remain within my calorie or macronutrient allowance on many days, I did eat with awareness so as to never be “stuffed”. I usually made the best choices possible and had only 1 alcoholic drink on New Years Eve. An amazing achievement for me.

3. I trained on most days albeit it not creatively. That’s changed now as Liz has prescribed both my cardio and conditioning work, leaving nothing to chance.

4. But all the physical stuff aside, the best thing has been that I’ve stayed positive, focussed and have been feeling really good about myself. You cant put a price on that – its FANTASTIC.

Last night I found myself quite excited about going to bed so that when I woke up I’d have my new program to do this morning. It was really good. The cardio was challenging (cause I made sure I worked hard) and enjoyable and I can see the benefits of my lower body workout. I have total control over my food today (except I have a little leftover meat from NYE to finish) so my eats are getting even cleaner. And WH has declared that he will not drink tonight so YIPPEE I will happily have a dry night as well. Things are certainly looking up!!

We said good-bye to our BS last night and he’s now staying with his nana and grandad on the Sunny Coast – lucky little bugger. This morning as we’re leaving for work my WH says:
“I feel like I’ve forgotten something”
“Have you got your phone?”

“Yep and my wallet and work ID”
“Well that’s all you really need.”

5 seconds later it dawns on me. “We’re missing the kid”. WH laughs and says “Yep that’s what it is”. We drive to work without having to play I spy all the way.

Have a great weekend all.

Cheers

Magda

GETTING LOTS OF PRACTICE WITH SOCIAL EATING

Since the ILs have been here we have had many social eating occasions and from Boxing Day onwards I’ve been consciously eating healthier. On each occasion I pay attention to how I feel and what and how much I eat so as to maintain this new lifestyle.

We ate out at one of Adelaide’s premier seafood restaurants last night and a part of me was feeling like “oh no not another meal out where I’ll struggle to stay on track”. But then I (quietly) told myself off and looked at all the positives like having a wonderful family that enjoys socialising together, getting to eat yummy food prepared (and paid for) by somebody else and yet another occasion to practice making good choices. And I certainly did last night and left the evening feeling empowered and really good about myself. Score a BIG one for me on that.

So today it’s a final lunch out with the ILs and then tonight we say goodbye to them and our BS who is spending 10 days on the Sunny Coast with them. WH and I will be childless all that time and it’ll be very weird. Next weekend I’m a bacheloress as WH travels up to bring BS home. WOOHOO - training whenever I want, eating clean food and staying away from the alcohol – even though I’ve arranged a night out with the girls.

This morning was like Christmas again as I received my first training program from Liz. Its refreshing to see how different her approach is and I’m excited about doing things a bit differently. So I have tomorrow’s training schedule all spelled out and I just have to give it my all. I like that, as left to my own devices I haven’t always done the most effective things training wise.

Speaking of which, yesterday and today had almost identical mornings in terms of being quite fresh and moderately windy (a welcome change after the extreme heat we’ve enjoyed here in Adelaide recently). So my training sessions were almost identical too. Nothing earth-shattering just jogging at a steady state for 40 minutes yesterday and almost 45 minutes today. The variety Liz has programmed for the next 2 weeks will be a welcome change.

Anyways WH has just popped over to say we are heading out to lunch in 5 so I’m going to say goodbye for now.

Cheers all

Magda

WELCOMING IN 2008

Bye bye 2007.

And a big warm welcome to 2008.

Our NYE was underwhelming to say the least. We had a family get-together for which I spent hours preparing a gourmet BBQ which was to be followed up with a games night. The food was ok (WH overdid the chicken a bit), nobody was drinking much and half the family was suffering various degrees of colds and other ills. With Moet on offer I weakened and had a glass but was saddened by the fact that – lo and behold – I didn’t even enjoy it. Food wise I could have done better as I found myself nibbling constantly with the pressure of getting everything ready (it wasn’t all done when our guests arrived) and having an extra kid to keep an eye on as BS had a friend come for a sleep-over that night.

Oh well its all in the past now so onwards and upwards from here. I spent yesterday keeping the boys under control, entertaining a stream of casual visitors and trying to get all my chores up to date before I came back to work today. It was a busy day ending in a (very uninspirational) dinner at my mum’s. This found me nibbling too much again – something I need to work on in the coming months.

I no longer make New Years Resolutions as I believe they are doomed to fail so these are the things I want to achieve in 2008. They have been in the back of my mind since Christmas and I’ve been working on them already so technically they don’t qualify as resolutions:

I will be competing in September in the WNBF SA Titles. My goal is to come in leaner with more muscle and I’ll know that I’ve achieved this by what my body composition is and how I look. My main areas to focus on this year are glutes and abs and I believe I can make some good gains in these areas. I have chosen to work with Liz Nelson this year (and I’m delighted that she was willing to take me on as a client) so that I can broaden my knowledge on all things to do with figure prep, healthy eating and lifestyle management.

This year I WILL get my eating under control. With Liz’s help I believe I’m ready to kick Betty the Binger out of my life and finally live with some eating normality. Whilst I may always struggle with emotional eating to some extent, I will learn how to minimise it and in doing so its my goal to embrace clean, healthy eating as a lifestyle choice and not something I feel I should do every now and then (like when I’m feeling fat and blobby LOL).

I am also focussing on being a more positive and balanced person. All too often I slip into my black hole and allow negative, self defeating thoughts to drag me down and justify my bad choices. Well I want that to stop, or at least to happen far less regularly. Once again I’m being realistic as I know that some old habits are pretty hard to break, but its something I will be consciously working on this year.

In 2008 I will share more with my WH. Whilst he will NEVER share my passion for bodybuilding/fitness etc, I know he will be far more accepting of what I’m doing and what means so much to me. I also want to share more fun times with him like going to the movies, going out to dinner (life is too short to be 100% strict with food) and relaxing Friday nights where we have a wine together and discuss whatever takes our fancy.

This year our BS will need our support even more as he settles into the new routine of school and a new set of rules and expectations. Its my intention to NEVER compromise my “family time”. That precious time between getting home from work and BS bathing and going to bed will be spent doing “family things” like talking about school or work days, helping with reading practice, speech practice or organising dinner/ lunches etc.

Career wise I have some very definite goals but they are on the back-burner for now. On this issue I’m taking more of a sit back and wait approach as I’m not ready to take charge just yet. On a day to day basis my goals are to pay more attention to detail and be more proactive as I felt I was slipping in these areas last year. I’m not totally happy where I am but I’m not ready to take the giant leap to what I want.

So that’s my quick round up of what’s important to me in 2008. I never did the whole formal goal setting thing but these things live in my heart and I choose to strive to achieve them in order to become a better person.

May everyone who reads my blog embrace 2008 as a fresh opportunity to move forward and achieve all their goals and ambitions. And lets not forget to have some fun along the way.

Cheers all

Magda

REPORTING BACK

Dinner on Saturday went really well. I had my (healthy) snack before we left so wasnt hungry when we got there. Said no the alcohol (God you'd think I had just committed the world's worst crime, judging by the reaction of the others!!) and had very few nibbles and then enjoyed the meal without feeling stuffed. My "treats" were a small piece of garlic bread and a small piece of almond bread. I was happy. I drank tons of soda with lemon and still enjoyed myself.

Tonight we had dinner at my S+BIL's and I stayed off the grog again and ate very moderately. We had a baked snapper stuffed with a mixture of bacon, mushrooms, prawns and smoked oysters with various salads (not the healthiest but not too deadly). Desert was fruit and endless types of chocolate and I managed to stay saintly and have only the fruit.

The family is going for a holiday to Fiji in March and everyone (except me) is desperate to lose weight before we go. They're all setting 5 or 10 kilo target losses and calling it "The Biggest Loser - Fiji". I'm quietly chuckling to myself at what they believe they can do or need to do to lose the weight. Only my WH knows the cold hard facts and I'm hoping he takes out the prize (winner gets their duty free purchased for them on the way home).

Cheers all

Magda

SO HOW IS YOUR SATURDAY GOING??

I woke up feeling really good (again). But my IPod needed charging so the run I was planning to do got swapped for an exercise bike ride, reading Womens Health and Fitness. It was still an OK workout.

For breakfast today I had 1/2 a 9 grain muffin with a small piece of lean grilled bacon, an egg and mushrooms on the side. Very nice!!

BS and Iwent out briefly to take care of some chores and then home for lunch. Today I stirfried a leftover packet of coleslaw veggies in chicken stock, low salt soy sauce, ginger and chilli and had some with tuna and brown rice. Another yummy and satisfying meal. Then I dragged out my overflowing ironing basket and got stuck into it all. Its empty now which is a great feeling. BS and I also played Trouble (I love that game and remember playing it when I was a little girl) and Uno. He won both games :-)

I've just polished off a Nestle Diet Lite peach and mango yogurt with a chopped peach and a sprinkle of chopped walnuts. My water intake has been excellent.

So with all those runs on my board I'm planning to not get out the minute we land at my friend's house for dinner tonight. She always has the yummiest food and I find it VERY hard to resist.

My plan: NO ALCOHOL and enjoy the food in moderation. Sounds easy but for someone who automatically goes back for seconds when they love what they've had, thats a big ask. But that is my intention.

I want to walk away from the visit feeling satisfied, happy and pleased that I didnt lose control and end up stuffing myself silly, or having too much to drink.

Stay tuned to hear how I went.

Cheers all

Magda

REFLECTING ON 2007

Today as I cleaned my house I thought about the year that was, or should I say, still is 2007. What an absolutely amazing ride it has been and in a couple of days time we say good-bye to it and welcome in 2008. So here's my take on my 2007.

JANUARY: I started the year with a dose of post-Christmas weight gain after a week away and doing my bit for finishing off Christmas leftovers. Hmmm had to train extra hard to get back to where I was before the Christmas holiday and I did it. This year I stopped eating anything junky on Boxing Day and therefore minimised any Christmas weight gain. Score One for me for Jan 2008 (when it rolls around).

FEBRUARY: The family travelled to Sydney to celebrate SIL's 40th birthday. We had a fantastic time staying in a luxurious 3 bedroom apartment in the city and seeing Priscilla Queen of the Desert was certainly a highlight that weekend. Training suffered a bit on that holiday but nothing that couldnt be made up quickly once back home.

MARCH: My SIL and her (then) fiance arrived in Adelaide and had bought a house a couple of suburbs away from where we live. Our social life kicked into overdrive with regular barbies, nights out at The Fringe and casual get-togethers. Things became a little more challenging when it came to eating clean but I persevered.
In late March we had another Sydney holiday this time with my best friend and her husband. More eating out, drinking, shopping and neglected training - which came as a bit of a godsend anyway as I had fallen over on one of my runs and had hurt my knee so a bit of forced rest was good.

APRIL: BS turns 5. We have all of our friends over for a celebration and for the first time I dont overeat in a social setting and I DRINK NO ALCOHOL. OMG I actually can do it if I really want to. Somewhere in there Easter happens but as I'm not a chocolate lover my only temptation is hot cross buns, toasted with butter. I buy VERY few and survive it basically unscathed. Going strong.

MAY: By now my training is really ticking along. I am so much leaner and am feeling some muscles growing. I hit 61.5 kilos at the end of May and it feels fantastic after starting off at 72.6 the previous December. Then I have a week of just not wanting to do the diet stuff anymore and I eat what I want, only confessing this to Josh (my trainer) once I've done it. The good thing is that after that week I'm ready to hop straight back onto my diet and training plan.

JUNE: In early June I crack the "under 30 mins" for my 5k run. I now have an early morning training partner too - hi Kristy :-) - and its so motivating having someone slog it out with you on those cold dark mornings. My mood is generally good but I have my down days and my hard times but I'm getting really excited about being 12 weeks out from comp at the end of June. So on the eve of 12 weeks I have a girls night in with my beautiful SIL and we share a pizza and a bottle of red wine. Now I'm ready to crank up the dieting and training. BRING IT ON!!

JULY: I start my comp prep really strong despite my mum having a heartattack (she is ok after it) and being broken into whilst we were home asleep - all in 1 day. My meals are pre-prepared and I just get on with it. Josh was happy with where my weight was at 12 weeks out and its all systems go. My birthday dinner at The Manse is superb and I have permission to eat what I want, including cake but not to stuff myself. I do as I'm told LOL. Things get a bit wobbly after this and I panic that I've blown my chances of competing. Luckily Deb and Alicia come to my rescue and put my mind at ease about my slip-up.

AUGUST: A difficult month. At the 57kg mark I hit a major mental hurdle. WH doesnt like the way I'm looking and so emotionally I'm a mess. I lose some weight, I regain it and I do this over and over again until I tell myself that I have to put aside WH's feelings and do what needs to be done. Not easy but I manage it. I think its was in August too that I got the opportunity to compete at the Championships in Sydney and after much debate we agree that I (we) should go. YIPPEE!!

SEPTEMBER: Last month before the comps in early October. I'm struggling along. Feeling the cold terribly. Tired. Cranky. The diet is STRICT and the training is punishing but the finish line is near. I have some posing coaching and my routine professionally choreographed and I practice heaps. WH has his birthday and I have a small indulgence. Josh is NOT pleased but WH is and that matters more right now.

OCTOBER: Well its finally here. On October 6th I make my Figure debut in the SA WNBF titles. Its a small show with very few female competitors but I cant control that. The night before the comp I'm overcome with emotion that I have done it. I have made it from Fat Girl at 72.6kgs to Figure Girl at 55kgs. I'm happy with how I look and I'm darned proud of what I've achieved so on the day I'm beaming from ear to ear every second that I'm on that stage.
This is followed up with the Championships (which I actually did qualify for in the end) in Sydney a week later and another awesome experience on stage with some VERY tough competition.
We finish October with the best holiday ever and I eat and drink without stressing about how I'm going to have to work it off. Life is great.

NOVEMBER: Post comp is a funny time. At first I enjoy not having the pressure to train or diet but I find it hard to find my "happy place". I have my ups and downs but I finish the month within the weight limit I wanted to maintain.

DECEMBER: I wish I could write a heap of really good things about this month but in all honesty I cant. I have struggled with my eating and my motivation for training has been dismal at times. I gained more weight than I wanted to but it was the emotional struggle that affected me the most. I'm so lucky that Liz (Nelson) came to my rescue and started to help me out of my hole. As I sit here typing away a few days after Christmas I can proudly say that athough I didnt eat clean or healthy on Christmas Day, I got straight into it on Boxing Day. I've NEVER done that before. Score another one for me.

So there is my recount of 2007. Interspersed with all that I recall times sitting in my exercise room crying my eyes out and wondering if I'd ever make it. My posing coach kicked off our working relationship with some negative comments about my body/weight, sending me off on a binge just to make what was already tough, even tougher. My poor WH could not believe what a comp prep actaully involved and many a time he struggled with it far more than I did.

Along the way I learnt many things like:

You cant expect to conque
r binge eating when you are dieting strictly. The diet fuels the binges and it is clearly a no-win situation.

Very few people understand what body building competitions involve. 99.9% of them will think you're crazy for doing it.

I actually like brussel sprouts (just prefer to NOT have them for breakfast!!LOL!!!)

There is the best support network in the bodybuilding world both through blogging and Josh's forum. I made some wonderful new friends (hi Kerry, Stacy, Cheryl, Tania, Deb, Alicia, Liz, Fern and more!!) and I love having these people to talk all things competing, training and dieting.

In the end despite all the hardship and tough times I NEVER GAVE UP and I proved to myself that I had it in me to take on something tough and apply myself with guts and determination and ACHIEVE MY GOAL.

I'm really looking forward to 2008 where I want to learn another way to prepare for comps and hopefully bring an even better package to thes tage in my 2nd year.

Cheers all

Magda

THANKS FOR THE COMMENTS ON MY LAST POST

Hilary: my WH also hates women with muscle but luckily figure girls dont have to carry too much. I could never do full on body building to compete in physique though. I just dont think he could live with that.
In the end though, making the decision to compete was more a mental thing and a test of my determination, and dedication to getting the job done and that was what my WH was supporting and respecting. It meant a lot to me knowing that I had it in me to see it through no matter how hard it got.

Cat: I also believe in leading by example but I'm not getting any followers. Unfortunately everyone in my family lives to eat and eats for pleasure and WILL NOT give up the foods they enjoy. So I'm a bit of an island there but on the other hand I'm also the island when it comes to being fit, slim and toned (most of the time). So I can live with that :-)

Rene: thank you so much for that lovely compliment. Its really put a smile on my face today (not that I was sad before). I guess I'm a victim of being my own worst critic but am working on overcoming that.

Rae: yes 2008 is looking brighter already and god knows we can all use less stress in our lives when we are preparing for comps LOL!! I checked out your blog today and loved the slide show!! Arent you AND Sheree a couple of hotties. (I cant believe your single).

Cheers

Magda

THE FRIJ AND PANTRY CLEANOUT

Today I had the pleasure of binning 1/3 of a pavlova, 2 spicy sausages and a bowl of pasta salad. New BIL (brother-in-law) picked up the ILs so they could stay with them for a few days. I managed to send with them: a block of Toblerone, a packet of Tim Tams, a container of pickled octopus, 2 packets of unopened dips. I froze the leftover cheesecake (for WH) and a box of mince pies (they'll test me out at times). The frij looks normal now - not like I have enough food to feed a small 3rd world nation.

After just one day of eating 99% clean and drinking over 5 litres of water I weighed in 2kgs lighter this morning. Thats a good dose of post-Christamas bloat gone and I'm feeling better already. I think from here on any loss should be fat so thats encouraging.

As intended I ran this morning and was puffing pretty hard even though I wasnt cracking any earth shattering speeds. My average heart rate for the 34 min session was 153 BPM. YOWSER!! No wonder that run felt so hard. I felt great having achieved it though as training has been sporadic lately so I cant expect any miraculous results.

Eating wise I had another good day with more fish, veges and my yummy protein pancake with banana and sugar free maple syrup for breakfast. A bit high in calories but all good ones and just too delicious for words :-)

Today I made my MIL and BS walk to our local shops. We only needed a few things and it was such a lovely day that I refused to use the car and be so lazy. Plus both MIL and BS could well use the (little bit of) exercise. BS whinged all the way as he had been dragged off his X Box and I'm not sure how much my MIL enjoyed it as I later found out that she thought it had been too hot to walk. (Honestly!!We dawdled for 10 mins there and 10 mins on the way back).

Then the rest of the day was spent catching up on Women's Health and Women's Health and Fitness magazines, reading blogs, playing with BS and pottering around home. For 2 days I've lived in shorts and a T shirt with NO MAKE - UP. I've relly enjoyed it.

Today I received more info about how my nutrition and training will look over the following year and this is really exciting. Some changes are in store from how I prepped this year so I'll be very curious to see how I go and just how much I can improve. Oh and WH is just taking it all in his stride when I say no to the alcohol, junk food etc so making the sacrifice is just that little bit easier. Life is pretty good right now!!

Cheers all

Magda

SOME MORE CHRISTMAS HIGHLIGHTS

Well the big day is history now and the excitement has faded and life returns to some normality (which is a very good thing!!). In my excitment on the day I wanted to write about some of the more significant things that happened. This is the first opportunity I've had with some time to myself to be able to do this.

My ILs are staying with us (they are from Brissie) and the days are busy and long - hence why last night I was up past 11pm blogging. Its my "unwind/me" time and I'm not working so the late nights are managable. (I may be doing my ironing tonight though Lia LOL!!!)

So back to the big day ..... my WH surprised me yet again with a very thoughtful comment that just meant so much to me. We were awake early and talking about Xmas pressies. I had (jokingly) put a smith rack on my Xmas list :-) and so I asked him if he'd bought it for me. He said no but that I could get one. I thought he was joking but he insisted he wasnt and said that he knew how much I wanted to compete again and having this piece of equiment at home would really help with my training. He was totally ok with me training to compete again and this is what meant SOOOO much to me.

You see 2007 was a very tough year for us. My WH is NOT into bodybuilding at all. He has no interest in it and it went as far as him hating what I did in order to be able to compete. There were some very tough times where I had to put all that aside and just keep pushing on, knowing how he felt about it. But being the WH that he truly is, he supported me in both shows and in Sydney he was changing his (negative) tune.

So I've let it all lie the last few months, not wanting to rush back into the "yes I'm competing again (whether you like it or not)" scenario and now I dont have to. I feel like I have his blessing and that means EVERYTHING to me. Oh and I'll be shopping for that smith rack as soon as the folks go home and things settle back down to true normality.

He also said there was another thing that I could get that I've wanted for a long time but I'll keep that under wraps as its well into the future and no point getting prematurely excited now.
God I feel so lucky and so blessed to have such a wonderful family.

Cheers all

Magda

DAY 1 OF MY NEW TRAINING PROGRAM

Just a quick post as its so late.

I had a fantastic Christmas where I was thoroughly spoilt with wonderful, generous presents. I ate what I wanted and tried to not have too much but weakened when it came to some of my favourites. I'm glad the eating is over (that sounds odd doesnt it!!).

Today our family got together to share the leftovers, have a few more drinks, talk and play games. I resisted all the goodies that I knew werent going to help me achieve my golas and stuck to the leftover seafood and salads. I drank over 5 litres of water / white tea as well and already feel a heap better than I did this morning or last night.

WH and I got out for a walk as well. Very light - moderate exercise for me but a good way to ease back in after a day ort two of indulging. Tomorrow will be a jog and maybe some weights as well. I expect to drop a kilo or 2 fairly easily and then I have about 2-3 kgs to lose to get to a weight that Liz has set as an initial goal.

Will write more tomorrow as my bed is beckoing at this late hour.

Cheers all

Magda

A UNIQUE CHRISTMAS - SANTA BROUGHT US A WEDDING

Christmas Eve at our house. I hosted my 2nd dinner for 10 people within a week. I love this pic of us as it really captures our fun spirits and love for each other. Our whole family was together sharing good food, a few drinks and lots of fun and laughter. What more could you ask for?





My WH organised this surprise gift for me. My dad made the frame and WH provided the comp photo. Now that I know about it, my medals will be fitted around the photo and my 2007 comp achievements will be forever immortalised. I've decided to place it in my exercise room so that it spurs me on to even greater things in 2008.

Congratulations to Mr and Mrs L. Thats my SIL with her husband right after their surprise wedding ceremony before Christmas lunch today. It was the perfect day for the happy couple who wanted a very casual wedding and decided to keep it all a surprise. There was barely a dry eye amongst us as they exchanged their vows.

I have so much more that I want to write about but it'll have to wait til tomorrow. Its late. I'm tired and my bed beckons.

Cheers all and I hope your Christmas Day was as fabulous as mine.

Magda

WISHING EVERYONE A MERRY CHRISTMAS

I suspect the lead up to Christmas Day will be very busy. I finished work today (phew!!) but there's still a lot to do before I can put my feet up and just enjoy the day.

In case I dont get to blog before then I'd like to wish everybody in blogland a very Merry Christmas and a fit and healthy New Year. Thanks to everyone who has taken interest in my blog and left comments of support and encouragement during this amazing year. Its been one helluva ride and 2008 is shaping up to be even more challenging and exciting.

I have some very specific goals for next year and am looking forward to taking the first steps towards them. I wish you all best in your health and fitness endeavours and hope that you experience the joy of achieveing all you set out to do.

Cheers for now

Magda

OPERATION OVERHAUL IS ON THE HORIZON

The ILs arrived last night and we had our nice family dinner at SIL’s. No camera so no snaps. MIL greeted me with “you’re looking good” with the smile to match. I wont tell you what I was thinking. Some things are just better left unsaid so I smiled back and said “thank you”.

I still have very sore legs but I got up early and ran – well dragged myself along – for 30 minutes. Yowser I felt heavy, unfit and lethargic. There’s no doubt that I’ve lost fitness with the extra weight, poor eating and inconsistent training.

This will all change starting on December 26th. Yes my new training program, my new (and hopefully final) attempt at embracing a permanently healthy lifestyle kicks off on Boxing Day which I have renamed “Operation Overhaul” (OO) Day. I’m feeling very positive about starting on that day. Firstly, its not a Monday. The old “starting a diet on Monday” mentality is doomed for failure in my opinion. Its also NOT a new year’s resolution (another mentality that’s doomed for failure). Being off work will make a big difference too and I’m determined to manage my social life in with my goals while my ILs are here. I’m not letting that be an excuse to further delay starting. Its also 37 1/2 weeks to the WNBF comp in Adelaide and time to get cracking on building a nice round booty.

I’m hosting dinner for 10 people tonight. WH will do most of it on the barbie though – love steaks and chicken kebabs – and I’m resorting to The Cheesecake Shop for dessert (I still have to work all day). We have a new outdoor setting to assemble before people arrive. Plus salads and veges to get ready. I expect I’ll be really buggered when its all over.

Cheers all

Magda

PS Thanks to those who left comments on my last post. Now I know just who the other blogger tragics are LOL

MY LEGS ARE KILLING ME!!

Today I’m suffering from major DOMS through my legs. That’s the price I’m paying for leaving too long between leg workouts and only dropping my weights down slightly, if at all. So couple this with the after-effects of the massage and I’m living today in pain, yet again.

Despite being so sore I got up at 4.50am again and did a chest/tris workout and a short cardio session on my exercise bike. Whilst my diet may not be great, at least I’m training and not letting myself become a total sloth. The ILs are arriving from Brissie this evening and we’re all having dinner at SIL’s tonight. It should be a great evening as the family gets together for the first time since Feb this year.

This morning I was really looking forward to getting to work (very unusual!!). I was hoping that Liz had replied to my email yesterday and she had!! YIPPEE!!! I’m so excited about what is around the corner for me. More on that soon.

I notice that blog posts have really dropped off lately which is understandable at this time of year. However I do feel disappointed when I check my favourite bloggers and there is no update. So ladies if you have a spare minute, whack something in your blog to keep the likes of tragic blog addicts like myself happy.

I’ve still got to arrange a pic of my new do. Maybe I’ll get a snap tonight. Some family happy snaps may be in order too.

Cheers all

Magda

LACKING ENERGY AND NURSING BRUISES

I set my alarm for 4.50am today so that I could do a solid hour of training before anything else occupied my day. I did 30 mins of leg work followed by 30 mins of cardio. The room was a bit hot and stuffy so I worked up a nice sweat.

Funnily today the training left me totally lacking energy despite eating VERY well for breakfast. I arrived at work feeling totally exhausted and even one of my colleagues asked if I was ok because I looked “tired in the face”. I tell you I would have given my right arm to be able to go home and go back to sleep. I think my “newly flowing energy” just flowed right out of my body overnight.

I wonder if this is connected to my killer massage. Today I can feel bruises in all the spots where I was massaged very firmly. There are hundreds and many are sore to touch. So physically I’m not feeling too good today, in fact I’m struggling through the day as I write this.

But on a happier note, I’ll be kicking off my formal training soon. I’m looking forward to having a structured program and somebody to guide me who I’m accountable to. I get excited just thinking about it and am keen to get stuck into day one in the week after Christmas when I’m off work. (Hopefully that’s not putting too much pressure on my new trainer!!)

Well I better sign off and focus again on feeling sorry for myself LOL. I guess I better toughen up though as this pain is but a warm-up to what I’m about to experience over the next 9 months I suspect :-) :-)

Cheers all

Magda

A NEW DO AND RELEASE OF CHAKRAS

Today was a maintenance day starting with a visit to the chiro. Everything between the waist and the knees was really tight and sore and a treatment was well overdue. I was in agony while the chiro pressed and stretched and cracked all the bits that werent quite right.

Then I managed to get an appointment with the masseure for the afternoon and I had a SERIOUS session of releasing tight muscles and working on the meridians (or chakras) to free up my flow of energy. The treatment was agonising again but when it was over I felt fantastic. I actually did feel like I had more energy. I drank heaps of extra water like the massuere recommended and I found myself not craving sweets and junky food as much as I have been lately. The masseure explained that I would be detoxing after the treatment which I figured was a good thing as my diet hasnt been great lately.

In between these times of torture I also got my hair coloured and cut into a slightly different style. I didnt want it cut short as I'm enjoying it being longer but I felt it was looking a bit ratty and in need of a lift. I love my new do. Its more of a bob and I now have a hair straightener to get the look right (I hope!!). If I didnt look so crappy right now, I'd take a snap and post it up but the end of the day is not my "best time" so you'll have to wait until I'm looking better before I share it with you.

Diet and training still not where I want them to be but I have better intentions for tomorrow which will be a bit more of a normal day. At this really hectic time of year I'm now aiming for 30-60 minutes of exercise a day and fitting it in in the morning before work. Mind you, as of Wednesday night the in-laws will be here so using the exercise room in the morning wont be an option (too noisy for them) so some creative thinking will be required to come up with an effective outdoor session (or two).

Cheers all

Magda

MUMMY IS AN OOMPALOOMPA

Oompaloompa: a short, round object; a fat person; somebody roleypoley

BS has been enjoying a new X Box game which we hired for the week. The oompaloompas are in the game. Thats as much as I know about that.

This afternoon WH is talking to BS about the game and the "oompaloompa" term comes up. I ask about it and get the explanation given above. So then WH says to BS "Do you think mummy is an oompaloompa?" and the cheeky little so and so says loudly "YES" :-0

Ok its time to stop making excuses, stop playing the poor victim, stop living like there's no tomorrow and eat clean, train hard and join the ranks of the non-oompaloompas once again.

BS has spoken and should not be ignored.

Cheers all :-) :-)

Magda

THE WISE MAN HITS THE NAIL ON THE HEAD - AGAIN

WHY PEOPLE SEEM TO BE STUCK LIVING IN FAT CITY:

7. Our inability to finish things.

We start jogging. We stop. GUILTY
We go on a diet. We go off it. DOUBLE GUILTY
We join a gym. We go five times. PHEW, NOT GUILTY ON THIS ONE (I TRAIN AT HOME)
We make resolutions. We don't follow through. PREVIOUSLY, VERY GUILTY
We lose fat. We regain it. LOST COUNT OF HOW MANY TIMES - PROBABLY A SQUILLION (WHICH IS THE WORLD"S BIGGEST NUMBER)
We start. We stop. ABSOLUTELY GUILTY - WOULD WIN THE GOLD FOR THIS ONE
We get fit. We get unfit. A LITTLE GUILTY - NOT MY WORST OFFENCE
We operate on emotion. IS THERE ANOTHER WAY??
We always find a 'reason' to give up. PREVIOUSLY - YES!!
We experience momentary motivation, but we never truly commit. Real commitment ("I will do this no matter what") creates life-long change, not temporary weight loss or occasional fitness. TRUER WORDS HAVE NEVER BEEN SPOKEN.

Thank you Mr Harper. Once again, you've hit the nail on the head.

Cheers

Magda

HELLO HAPPY ZONE

Well I’m certainly back in my “Happy Zone” (she says feeling calm, confident and in control). I love these phases and when I feel REALLY good, I just want to bottle it and keep it on hand for the slumps.

I set out for my run this morning and CHOSE to do sprints. No “oh I better do sprints” or “I’m only sprinting only coz I feel I have to”. I pounded my little sprint track of approximately 100 metres 14 times for a total of 20 minutes. Perfect as I had an earlier start to travel to the country for work.

Food wise I was strong and in control today. A visit to a country bakery to buy a cool drink saw me buying just that. No cakes. No hot food. Nothing else junky. Just a cool drink. I had packed a nice salad of various veges, wholemeal pasta, a nice flavoured tuna and very light dressing of low fat mayo / BBQ sauce / sweet chilli sauce. It was delicious. That was a win for me.

My only downfall today is the 3 cans of Diet Coke I had to keep me awake on the country drive. No matter what, I get really sleepy when doing country driving on my own and so I drink (cold) Diet Coke for the caffeine hit which does keep me alert. I know its bad for my insides but I figure its better to have bad insides than to be dead from falling asleep at the wheel (which has happened to me once before).

Oh and I almost forgot to mention that I weighed myself this morning. I’m heavier than I want to be as my weight has gone up again but I’m not surprised and maybe that’s why I’m not having a negative reaction to it. So even with this I’m still in my Happy Zone. How good is that??!!

Cheers all

Magda

PRIVATE THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS

I must confess that I havent been blogging as regularly lately as I've been going through another one of my darker times. Motivation has been a bit woeful, consistency ... whats that?? and as for bad habits - well I've been living with them daily.

I've been wondering if this is still the effect of the post-comp-slump that you hear so much about or is it just me - going round in circles coz I havent chosen a direction that I want to travel, a destination that I want to reach. Or maybe I have chosen it but am not ready to go public with it just yet.

There are times when my mind works over-time analysing everything to the nth degree (I think thats the Virgo in my WH rubbing off on me LOL) and last night was one of those times. I lay in bed and thought through all the emotions, actions, beliefs and outcomes of the last couple of weeks and came to realise some key things:

1. I have the tools to make this work, to gain control over my eating and to maintain that control at a level that is healthy and good for me. I'm not saying that I can go it entirely alone - I plan to get help with it but having that self belief is the most important thing right now.

2. I need to have a goal and I will feel good working towards achieving it. I need a plan to achieve that goal and structure in my training and nutrition. This "lost soul" feeling doesnt sit well with me and I dont want to live my life from day to day just doing a bit of this or a bit of that.

3. I too must put the bad events of the last few weeks behind me and look forward. I've had my good times when I felt strong and in control but when that feeling went, I didnt cope or handle things well at all. Now I must strive to not dwell on that but build small positive steps forward.

I'm amazed at how much I get from reading other people's blogs. When somebody writes about how good they are feeling or how well they are progressing I'm genuinely lifted up along with them. If I read about personal struggles I can empathise and I realise I'm not alone. Whilst I feel sad for that person, I feel a little less sad for myself.

So tomorrow I tackle another day. I plan to run in the morning and then I'm travelling to the country for work. On Friday is my work's Christmas lunch and this year I will eat well and have a few drinks. I chose not to last year and I felt like I had "missed out". Socially it'll be a busy time leading up to Christmas and my goal will merely be to not gain any more weight. Then I plan to get stuck into a new training and nutrition program with a huge smile on my face.

Oh and I plan to blog more regularly ... but not with a heap of negative cr*p :-)

Cheers all

Magda

MY DISTURBING INCIDENT - THE CONCLUSION

I set out to run this morning and kept mulling over the events of last Thursday. I have decided to keep running in my suburb as buying a treadmill is out of the question and I dont have time to travel to other possible running places (I need to be finished by 6am). I always have my phone with me as a small safety measure. Sadly buying a dog isnt an option as it would be the loneliest most neglected animal while we are away long hours at work.

What I've decided though is to stay in the side/back streets and not venture too far from home. I will only use the main roads at busier times (like on weekends when I run later). So I picked a nice circular route that took me no more than 1-1.5kms from home and repeated it 3 times. I felt ok until I heard a hotted up car rev its engine some distance from me but then realised that it wasnt nearby and was not a threat. I calmed back down then. I guess I'll be a little bit edgy for a while but thats understandable.

Thanks again to everyone who left good suggestions and advice for me. I really appreciate your help and your concern.

Cheers

Magda

THE QUEEN OF CLEAN

Please note that I'll write more about my disturbing incident tomorrow. I've just about made up my mind as to what I'll do but will think it over once again before I decide. Thanks to everyone who left comments. I've picked up some good tips and some food for thought.

Today I was the "Queen of Clean" as I tackled my annual spring/Christmas clean. I have worn the nail polish off most of my (acrylic) nails on my right hand :-( and I have aching shoulders, middle and lower back and hip flexors that are as tight as a cat's bum. I attacked the window tracks, cleaned windows and dusted the venetians. I gave the ensuite a really good going over and cleaned every inch of the study, master bedroom and lounge room. I have finished 1/3 of the house :-( My lord there is still so much to do!!

My training has really taken a back seat the last few days. I have done nothing for 3 days and am feeling less that "ideal" for it. Couple that with some less than ideal eating and I'm confessing that there's plenty of room for improvement in this camp. Yes things have slipped into a not so good pattern but I will turn it around and make my fitness and health the highest priority again(which I admit it always should be).

Over the next 2 or so weeks it'll come down to some clever time management. Fitting in: work,
training, finishing the cleaning, finishing the Christmas shopping and wrapping presents, finalising the Christmas celebration preps etc etc.....I can feel a list coming on.

I hope everyone is better organsied than I am ... or should I say "better advanced than I am". I'm not disorganised, just in need of an extra couple of weeks thanks.

Cheers all

Magda

A DISTURBING INCIDENT

I've been in 2 minds as to whether to write about this as in hindsight its a bit of a non-event but the fact that I'm still troubled by it means it was significant to me.

PLEASE NOTE: I LIVE IN A MIDDLE CLASS SUBURB WITH NICE HOMES IN IT. ITS NOT POSH OR UPPER CRUST AND YOU WOULDNT EXPECT IT TO HAVE A HIGH CRIME RATE ..... BUT IT DOES.

Yesterday morning I was out for one of my usual early morning runs. It was around 5.45am and broad daylight. I was on a semi-main road (one connecting 2 main roads) in my suburb when I got hollered at by some hoons in what was like a hoon version of wolf whistles. It unsettled me a little as its pretty deserted around that time of day even though there are homes nearby (as I never run in totally deserted/uninhabited areas). I picked up my pace and was not far from home anyway.

A little bit later I decided to run a little longer and was in a side street tucked well away in my suburb. The same car drove up to me, slowed down and the scruffy, unsavoury looking male passenger asked me if I knew where there was a public phone box. A second car very similar to the first was behind and had also slowed down.

OMG I DIDNT LIKE THAT AT ALL!!!!!!!! (I answered no twice and kept running and they drove off). I picked up my pace and ran FAST to my home which was only a couple of minutes away by then. So many (negative) thought were racing through my mind and I was quite frightened.

I would just like to add the following:

1. I was not dressed in a revealing or "put it out there" way. No shorts, no crop top just long pants and a long sleeved T shirt. Very ordinary if you ask me.
2. To drive past me the 2nd time they would have had to look for me. That was no coincidence. And who uses public phones these days?? NOBODY!! Everybody has a mobile and if there are 2 of you and 1 has a flat battery the chances are the other one doesnt.
3. I was honestly contemplating hopping into a house about 100-200 metres away as one of my work colleagues lives there and I knew she would understand if I needed a refuge.

Mind you after seeing me close up - no make-up, hot, sweaty, very unglam they probably were happy to just drive off LOL!!

Then to really put the icing on the cake I was lying in bed last night with the front door open and only the security door locked for protection and I could hear in the not too far distance lots of yelling, tyres screeching and hoon carry on. It disturbed me and left me feeling not quite 100% safe.

So do I ignore this incident and keep running early as I've been doing up to now, sometimes getting 3-4 kms away from home? Do I keep running early but stay MUCH closer to home (eg street sprints)? Or do I limit myself to cardio on my exercise bike and rower? (I'm not a gym goer so thats not an option for me).

Magda

MY WH

I met my WH through work. He came to work in the same section as me but I was married at the time and didnt really pay much attention to him in the beginning. A few months after he started we travelled together for work and over dinner one night he said something very thoughtful to me. It was a sort of warning about something very unlikely but it showed his very caring nature and that he was a man of real integrity. I started to become interested.

Anyway to cut a long (and probably boring to you) story short, I left my unhappy marriage and started "dating" him. The rest is history. We've been together since December 1989 and married since March 1995. I'm very lucky to have man who has the greatest integrity you can imagine. He is as honest as the day is long and has the highest morals and standards for EVERYTHING!! Being a Virgo he isnt impulsive but he is an excellent planner, analyser and organiser. In our relationship he is the "head thinker" whilst I'm the "heart thinker". It works well.

Ok now that I've sung his praises I will add though that he definitely DOESNT share my passion for fitness/training and especially competing. He found this year VERY hard (probabaly harder than me!!) and that put an extra strain on me and on us. But I guess we cant have it all.

I will also say that my WH is not what you call "hot" but I'm sure that if he was "available" many a smart woman would snap him up.....just as I did LOL

Cheers Kristy

Magda

ITS ALL ABOUT MY BOY

This afternoon WH and I will meet with the teacher our BS will have next year. I’m really looking forward to it. The Kindy boys had their reception orientation morning yesterday and my BS was very excited by it all. Especially as he got to sit next to the friend he had made in the first half of the year. The happy look on his face was priceless.

Tomorrow I will be attending his graduation and I know I’ll be so proud of him. Next year he’ll be a school-boy with a new set of adventures and challenges ahead of him. I hope it continues to be a happy experience and that he feels successful in everything he takes on.

To every mother who reads this I know you share my thoughts, concerns, wishes etc. For what would life be like without our most precious gifts?

This morning in the rush to leave for work and Before School Care, I asked BS to come to me so I could put his shoes on and tie the laces (he was checking out a new, very beautiful Xmas card). One request: no response; two requests: no response. On the 3rd request I’m getting grumpy and ready to issue the first “If you don’t come here now I’ll…..” when he marches over, sits down in front of me, takes my face into his little hands and gives me a kiss on the lips. Now try and stay angry after that :-)

Cheers all

Magda

A DAY OF GOOD DECISIONS

Well despite feeling quite crappy today through lack of sleep, lack of inspiration, lack of motivation and ...I better stop there as I'm sounding like a misery guts LOL....I actually did the right thing as far as my eating was concerned. This is significant for me right now so I'm patting myself on the back for it. It would have been so easy to seek comfort from crap foods but I knew that at the end of the day "forbidden" food wasnt going to make me feel better, in fact I would feel worse both physically and mentally. So I focussed on eating mainly clean food when I was hungry and WH had to drink on his own at dinner time.

Training has suffered a little as we had an unexpected visitor last night and as I hadnt seen this person for some time I enjoyed sitting down and just chatting away. No training this morning with BS waking too early and then settling back in our bed. I plan to hit the exercise room soon as I have a bit of catching up to do.

I'm slowly getting through "If not dieting" and the more I read the more I feel that Dr Rick has jumped into my head and knows exactly what I'm thinking and feeling about food and diet. Its opening my eyes to a few things that I had conveniently chosen to ignore. I hope it offers some good solution strategies too (or maybe it already has and they just havent sunk in yet). Its a great read nevertheless and I would highly recommend it to anyone who is battling food/diet issues.

So I'm going to wrap up there as I have cleaning up to do, a BS to get off to bed and then some training to blitz through.

Still not feeling great but not as fragile as this morning.

Cheers

Magda

MAYA ANGELOU'S WISDOM

In April, Maya Angelou was interviewed by Oprah on her 70+ birthday. Oprah asked her what she thought of growing older. And, there on television, she said it was "exciting." Regarding body changes, she said there were many, occurring every day...like her breasts. They seem to be in a race to see which will reach her waist, first. The audience laughed so hard they cried.

She is such a simple and honest woman, with so much wisdom in her words! Maya Angelou said this:

"I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow."

"I've learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights."

"I've learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you'll miss them when they're gone from your life."

"I've learned that making a "living" is not the same thing as "making a life."

"I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance."

"I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw some things back."

"I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision."

"I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one."

"I've learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back."

"I've learned that I still have a lot to learn."

"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."

I read this today and it brought a tear to my eye. I'm feeling a bit delicate, emotional and unsettled right now. Its a challenging time.

Will post more later.

Magda

FTS DAY

This morning it was FTS (Face the Scales) time which I wasn’t looking forward to but it needed to be done. I’m the sort of person that needs to keep a check on those numbers as I all too easily fool myself that I’m either grossly overweight (as is the case now) or that everything is under control while I ignore clothes getting tighter and tighter. Or I wear stuff that has plenty of give so I don’t notice the extra weight. A “head in the sand” approach just doesn’t work for me.

So how did I go? Well I was pleasantly surprised as the increase was not as much as I had dreaded. God knows my eating has been REALLY bad over the last week or so and its showing on both me and the scales but I’m pleased to say that I’m not “grossly overweight” as I had feared. LOL.

But even before I stepped on those scales I felt so much better than I have over the last week. Its like a huge weight has been lifted off me (sorry about that pun) and I’m feeling positive and optimistic about the future. I can see a way forward and I’m moving in the right direction just taking slow steps for now.

I’m slowly reading “If not dieting, then what” which is just brilliant. Its like Dr Rick is describing my life to a T and although I’m only at the very beginning, already I’m understanding things so much better and am not feeling like some out-of-control-freak (a feeling that I’ve lived with this last week).

I headed out nice and early for a sprint session at my local oval. It was a glorious morning – mild temperature, no wind and I was enjoying the peace and solitude. I ran my sprints with just a little extra spring and speed in my steps and felt great when I got home hot and tired. YEEEHA. I love cardio.

Food wise I’m going to remind myself daily WHY I choose to eat clean and healthy most of the time. I don’t want to be stressing about good food / bad food, should I have this / should I have that. Life is too short and along with good food, its there to be enjoyed.

:-) Magda

THANKS TO LIZ THE WIZZ

I owe my return to sanity to the wonderful Liz Nelson. Although I'm not a client of her's, she has gone out of her way to help me deal with the issues which I'm battling at the moment. She has shed light on some key aspects of life after comps and I no longer feel like a freak battling behaviours which are clearly destructive. I also feel ready to reassess my actions and attitude and start to look positively to the future. Things are starting to look up although I know I have a long way to go before I'm at a place that I'll be happy with.

Today I bought "If not dieting, then what?" by Rick Kausman and have started reading it in an attempt to turn around some of my very bad habits/behaviours. I'm determined to get off this negative merry-go-round, this destructive Groundhog Day cycle no matter how hard it is. I've tackled hard things before and I've conquered them so I know I have it in me. I just think I've been going about it all the wrong way up til now. Sometimes you have hit the bottom before you can bounce back up again and I'm pleased to say I'm creeping up ... albeit it slowly.

I'm not going to say any more tonight. I have some more thinking to do and some planning for how to tackle things slowly from here on. And I'm looking forward to getting back to my book.

To everyone that has also offered support through their words of wisdom I say thank you for taking the time to help. It all does make a difference!!

Cheers

Magda

WARNING: NEGATIVE RANT BELOW

Please feel free to skip my post today. I'll understand if you dont want to get immersed in my negativity.

Yesterday I was still in my negative rut. I wrote this in my daily summary in my Training Journal.

"In all honesty I feel stuck in a negative rut. I seem to have lost my belief in myself – my motivation – my dedication to doing the right things.
I’m sick of dieting.
I’m sick of being 100% obsessed with what to eat / what not to eat.
I'm sick of this Groundhog Day cycle that has always taken hold of my life. - You know the one: Diet/eat well, lose weight; Do a 180 degree turn, eat crap, gain weight; repeat over and over like a mouse in a cage with nowhere else to go"
I have some major issues to sort out right now.
But worst of all I’m feeling fat and bloated and I’m terrified that my lovely slim and toned body will disappear any day now."

Thanks Stacy and Hilary for your supportive comments. Yes I probabaly need one huge vent/rant to get it all off my chest and then be able to move on. Hilary I have tried self hypnosis before and had some success with it. Perhaps after I've dumped my frustrations I'll be more open to taking positive steps forward.

Magda

PS I think thats the vent/rant I needed.

MY NEGATIVE QUAGMIRE

Last week I promised to keep blogging "warts and all" even though I was tempted to stay away if/when things werent going well for me.

On Friday night I had big plans and the best intentions to clean up my eating and get back on track. Saturday afternoon spent in a play cafe with millions of screaming kids running feral soon fixed that intention. (NOTE: If you are contemplating whether or not to have children, AVOID PLAY CAFES AT ALL COSTS!!!! ) My BS had a fantastic play while I slowly went around the bend from the noise and excessive activity around me. On the way home we stopped at our local cafe so I could chill out with a coffee....and an almond biscuit. It was basically downhill from there on.

So I sit here tonight and as much as I want to turn things around, I'm stuck in a negative quagmire. For some reason I'm overcome with self doubts and a "losing attitude". I need to break out of this but I just cant seem to gain any forward momentum. I would love to indulge in a day or two of just "me-time" but thats out of the question this week....well maybe not. Maybe I should just make it my number one priority and bugger the stuff I'm putting ahead of it.

Will think about this some more.

Cheers all

Magda

5 THINGS YOU DIDNT KNOW ABOUT ME

I had braces put on my teeth when I was 36 years old. While my braces were on I was also on IVF. During my 2nd cycle of IVF treatment I gained a lot of weight. So there I was: braces on my teeth, fat and depressed. It was one of the darkest times in my life.

I met my WH through work and I “chose” him. He started work in my section and although I was (unhappily) married at the time something he said to me made me realise how many great qualities he had. So I decided to quickly snap him up before someone else did – hey a good man is hard to find and there aren’t that many fish in the sea. Then we worked apart for several years and we are now back working in the same section again (but not the same section we met in).

I am a princess of the highest order but in 1996 my WH and I did a camping tour through south west USA. So I lived in dirty jeans, hair in a pony tail and no make up for 3 weeks and I HAD A BALL!!!! I even had a few odd days where I didn’t shower – in fact nobody in our group did as we were camping in the Arizona desert.

I am a coffee snob. I no longer touch instant coffee and will only drink coffee if out and somebody makes it for me (eg if I buy it). I always have a “weak skinny cappuccino” – and don’t be stingy with the chocolate topping.

I’m the only person I know who doesn’t like chocolate. I will occasionally eat chocolate if it has something in it that I like (Ferrero Rochers, Kit Kats, or other nutty or biscuity fillings). I NEVER eat chocolate ice cream, chocolate mousse, chocolate mud cake or other chocolate cakes. A block of plain chocolate has absolutely no attraction or temptation for me. I’m no saint though – I have other vices!!

Cheers all

Magda

MY 3 DAY MINI DETOX

Since the comps have finished I've tried to eat quite clean during the week and then relax a bit on the weekend. This allowed me to keep my weight under check but then enjoy some "indulgences" so that I had some balance in my life/eating.

Well this last week has just been totaly off the rails and I feel fat, bloated and blaaaaah. So my plan is to do a mini detox over the next 3 days. I've chosen to start it tomorrow as its not a work day and some of my biggest challenges/issues have arisen from work this week. (This in itself coud be a long winded post but the less said the better). So here's my plan for Saturday:

1. Upon rising have 400ml hot lemon drink (approx 1T of fresh lemon juice + warm water) I actually do this every day and I love it.
2. Follow up with WPI shake before weight training (legs/shoulders/bis)
3. 30 minutes cardio either straight after weights or in the afternoon depending on how family stuff pans out.
4. PWO will be a WPI shake + apple.
5. Meals all 100% clean with NO processed food/no alcohol/no diet soft drinks or anything else remotely crappy. So its lean protein + salad/veg + good fats. Eating only when hungry!!!
6. Water intake target = 5-6 litres (with fresh lime slices).
7. Extra doses of fibre supps to move things along :-)

This is not a traditional detox but I know that after 3 days of eating 100% clean I'll just feel 100% great.

We have future BIL coming over for a BBQ tomorrow (SIL is visiting friends in Sydney) and the menu is suitably clean and healthy and I'll leave the boys to hoe into the beers and wine. I may even sneak off for an early night.

So thats my plan to get things back on track. After a successful Saturday (which I just know it will be because I've made up my mind about it) I then repeat this on Sunday and Monday with just a slight modification to the training.

Looking forward to feeling a whole lot better in a few days time.

Cheers all

Magda

CHECK OUT LIA'S HUMOUROUS PHOTO FOR TODAY

Now give him a blonde wig and a lime green bikini and thats me this week.

Shame shame shame

:-) Magda

"WARTS AND ALL" FROM NOW ON

I think one of the reasons I'm particularly down this time is because my actions over the last few days have been so unsupportive of my long term goals. Little things I've been striving to achieve daily have just fallen by the wayside. Bad old habits have taken hold and they need to be shown the door......preferably for good.

I know this negativity will pass (it always does) and then LOOK OUT as I bounce back stronger and more determined than ever :-)

I have some work to do in this regard and I think I'll kick it off tonight. Thanks to the brilliant Craig Harper who's blog today is just what I needed to be reminded of some hard and fast facts. I love it when Craig tells it like it is as I'm one of those people who can do with a gentle (or downright forthright) reminder every now and then.

And I agree....its better to keep blogging through the good and bad and the ups and downs. So thats what I'll aim to do. Tell it like it is, "warts and all".

I feel better just having put that out there.

:-) Magda

BATTLING A NEGATIVE MOOD

I’ve avoided blogging for a few days as I’ve hit another slump with my motivation. For months and probably even years these phases hit me quite regularly in distinct cycles but never tying in with TTOM. I must be the only female I know who has NEVER suffered from PMT. Moods – yes but not in the usual PMT pattern.

I hate it when these down times hit. Sometimes I’m really strong and I stay on top of them. This hasn’t been one of those times.

There are some things that I’m not happy with at the moment and its very hard to focus on the glass being half full when I’m in such a negative place with this issue. I wish I could write more about it but this is not the time or place so I’ll try to work through this myself and see if I can turn things around.

Magda

THE FIGURE GIRLS' LUNCH

Hi all,

we had a fantastic get-together today. I was having such a good time with all the talk, laughter and food that I didnt get a chance to take any pics. Sorry. Will get some next time. It was so good to just talk training, competing and training, competing with people who share the same interest and passion for the sport. Nobody in my other circle of friends could put up with that sort of conversation for that long. There are some things that only certain people understand.

So its been a hugely social weekend with its fair share of eating and drinking. On a positive note I can say that although I drank on 3 days this week (I usually limit myself to 2) I only ever had a couple of drinks at a time which is very good for me. I'm not even craving more. Eating wise ..... well I could have/should have eaten less at times but I enjoyed what I had and like last weekend, I'm not beating myself up over it. I feel like I'm treading water .... not improving or moving forward but not sinking either. Right now thats sitting ok with me.

Training has been good with a cardio session on the rower yesterday and a chest/tris session this morning followed by 30 mins on the ex bike. Still undecided if I'll train early tomorrow (I dont usually on Mondays) but the mornings are so nice now with the hotter weather that its a shame to waste them.

Cheers all

Magda

SATURDAY ARVO

Hi all,

its Saturday arvo and I'm just home from helping my mum do her Xmas shopping. Its only mid November and already the local Westfield is like a brothel on a free night LOL!! We are tackling in ours in 2 weeks time so imagine what it'll be like then :-( At least we are taking a Friday off work and doing it all in one foul swoop. We're then going to treat ourselves to a lovely Malaysian lunch at one of our fave eateries. We will feel like we'd earnt that treat!!

Mum and I had a nice lunch out with a glass of wine and a long talk. We are really close but with busy lives (well me mainly) and a BS who invariably is the centre of attention, its hard for mum and I to spend quality time together. Days like today are therefore precious.

Tonight we are going to our bosses place for pre-Xmas drinks. Yes WH and I work in the same place and as he is a Manager there, he (and therefore we) get to hobnob with the "management crowd" - woohoo (insert sarcastic tone). No its all good. Our boss is a lot of fun and I expect it to be a good night. Anyways I'm on driving duty so I have to behave and I've reminded WH that he cant afford to disgrace himself either .......as if he (Mr Everything Right Virgo) ever would :-)

Then tomorrow the Adelaide Figure Girls are meeting for lunch. Stay tuned for that report + photos. I cant wait :-)

Cheers all and have a fantastic weekend.

Magda

THE TAG GAME

Four dishes I like to cook:
1. My oats for breakfast - perfect start to the day
2. Chill con carne - a fave with WH
3. Wokful of stir fried veges - usually as part of my comp prep
4. Carrot cake - but cant remember the last time I made one

Four qualities I love in people:
1. Integrity
2. Honesty
3. Passion
4. Positive attitude

Four Places I have been:
1. New York
2. London
3. Paris
4. Grand Canyon

Four things in my bedroom:
1. A TV - I know its bad feng shui but I MUST wake up with Kochie and Mel on weekday mornings
2. My comp medals - still on a high and I like to be reminded daily of what I achieved
3. Dust - yep its time to clean again
4. Miss Moneypenny (our cat) usually snuggled up on our bed with us :-)

Four dirty words I like to use:
1.crap
2.f*** (at chosen times only)
3.bl**dy hell
4.gee I better stop there....thats a bit embarassing!!

So I had a good day today. Trained short, sharp legs this morning. Caught up with a friend at lunch time and had a warm chook salad of which I ate most of it but that lasted til dinner time (which is an accomplishment in itself!!). Then had a (large) salmon steak BBQed for dinner with a bit of an indulgent salad (spinach leaves, fat free semi dried tomatoes, roasted pumpkin, low fat feta and pine nuts) + a couple glasses of white wine. I'm all good with that now just need to power through the next 2 days so that I enjoy what I have but keep it all under control. Indulge a little but dont go overboard.

Time for bed. Cheers

Magda

THE POST WITH NO NAME

Hmmm what to write about today??

Training: sprint session this morning. AWESOME!!

Nutrition: all on track. Big pat on the back for not devouring a heap of junk in between getting home and feeling hungry and having dinner MUCH later as WH was travelling back from the country. I raided the pickled veges, had a few mouthfuls (yummy cold and sour!!) and then waited for WH to get home so we could eat steak and veges together :-)

Weight check: WINNER WINNER!! The scales are still down where they were last Friday (even though they would have been up a bit after the weekend) so I'm still happy.

How am I feeling about myself? Pretty good actually. I've faced some challenges this week and I've handled them well. Nothing earth shattering but add up all the little things and they make a BIG difference.

I have tomorrow off and will be enjoying the company of my BS as we tend to chores such as grocery shopping with some fun thrown in (visit to Gloria Jeans for a coffee for me and a biscuit for him, lunch out somewhere) and a catch up with a friend + some business as well. In the afternoon my BS does Aussie Hoops (basketball skills) which is a challenge getting him to participate but its worth it when he does.

I'm hoping to blog tomorrow as I have a big busy and social weekend coming up and I dont want to fall in a heap with my progress past comp phase.

Take care all and stay tuned

Cheers

Magda

CONTRASTING DAYS AND MESSAGES WITH MEANING

Yesterday I had bad a night’s sleep, got up early to do cardio but couldn’t do it due to “mum duties” taking priority. I felt flat, grumpy and blah all day long.

Today I was up mega early from another night of bad sleep but I used the time to do a weights session followed by 40 mins of cardio. When I had finished exercising I felt fantastic. What a contrast in the 2 days that could have been a repeat of each other.

With my mood yesterday I knew I was particularly vulnerable to eat off plan believing that it would “make me feel better”. It took all my resolve to acknowledge how I felt and remind myself that eating crap would NOT make me feel better. I chose to accept how I felt and just ride it out. I went to bed last night feeling like a winner as I’d made good choices which would not sabotage my longer term goals.

Needless to say, today everything is well under control and I’m not feeling like I could tip over into “sin now pray later” mode. This is such destructive behaviour as it forces me to continue on the diet/binge/diet cycle which I’m well and truly fed up with.

I’m a bit of a sucker for horoscopes and today I feel mine is particularly relevant:

CANCER (June 21 – July 22): Ever since late September you’ve been benefiting from the influence of Mars in Cancer. You’ve tackled numerous challenging situations and made remarkable progress in many. Now that its going retrograde, you’ve a chance to focus on those in which there’s been less progress, and find ways to overcome any limitations or restrictions in these as well.

And lo and behold that’s exactly what I’m working on now. I’ve succeeded in making it to the Figure stage in pretty good shape but I still have work to do on getting my eating habits where I’m happy with them most of the time. Small steps, putting one foot in front of the other, choosing beneficial behaviours and just never giving up will see me succeed, I’m sure.

Cheers all

Magda

REFLECTING ON THE WEEKEND & LEARNING ABOUT MYSELF

Last night when I went to bed I spent a bit of time thinking over how I had handled the weekend in terms of my training and nutrition.

Training: 100% spot on. I achieved what I had planned to do :-)

Nutrition: My wins were:

Moderating my alcohol intake - especially on Saturday night in a big social setting where normally I would have easily had 7-8 drinks (over several hours) but I think I had 3-4. Happy with that. I find I'm no longer enjoying large amounts of alcohol and stopping after 3 or 4 drinks is quite easy. Plus I'm only having alcohol twice a week and often not even having as many as the 3-4 drinks.

Lunch out on Saturday. I ordered a small gourmet yiros pizza and only ate til I was satisfied. WH had a piece and then when he saw I was leaving some -and after giving me a fair bit of grief about it :-( he finished off what I left. I mean honestly...we are NOT 5 years old where we have no choice but to finish everything on our plate!!!!!!

Good healthy clean breakfasts on both days + a healthy lunch on Sunday.

Where I could have done better was with how much I ate Saturday night, the freshly baked cookies indulgence on Sunday arvo + my addiction to the crusts of fresh bread.

But you know what, instead of lying there and beating myself up over this, I just admitted I could have done better and then let it go. I did think of ways to better manage some of these situations in future and will give them a go when the situation arises again. Enough said about that.

Eats have been good today (I knew they would be) and tonight I trained back and abs at home. A short but hard session which I think I'll feel tomorrow :-)

Cheers all and thank you Charlotte, Little Rene, Splice and Lia for taking the time to see how I'm going and leave encouraging comments. I'm slowly learning to give myself more credit for what I've achieved and what I'm capable of. And I'm working on not beating myself up over (relatively insignificant) mistakes. This journey is a great learning process and I'm an eager and interested student.

Magda

YOU WIN SOME - YOU LOSE SOME

This statement best decsribes my hectic weekend which has meant I have only now been able to get onto the computer and update. We were on the go all day Saturday with the Christmas Pageant, a classmates 5th birthday and then a friend's son's 7th birthday. What a social whirl.

Today was a day of catching up with domestic chores, amusing BS and getting organised for the week. In the morning I thought I didnt really have much to do so why is it that its only just finished now around 9pm??!!

I had no training scheduled for yesterday which was sensible and today I did my cardio which was all I really set out to do (weights would have been a bonus but not essential today). Eating wise is where the title of my blog applies. In some ways I did really well but in others I could have been a lot better. Baking cookies with my BS in the afternoon was probably not a great idea as I did indulge in some and I fell down in a couple of other areas as well but I'm not beating myself up over it.

My weight on Saturday morning was about 2.5kgs above my Adelaide comp weight and you know what.... I was pretty happy with that. Hence the "relaxing" somewhat with the eating. Tomorrow its back into the lean and clean eating and throwing some weights around and all will be 100% back on track.

Well I'm going to sign off now and see how everyon else is. Hope you've all had a good weekend.

Cheers

Magda

DOMS DAY

I felt it starting last night. You know that feeling that whispers at you "look out those muscles are going to HURT". And sure enough this morning they did. Glutes, quads (front + side), hammies arent too bad but the rest are very sore. I love this feeling coz it means I did a good workout.

Today I was itching to train again so I hit chest/tris and only eased back on some of the weights slightly. After the session was over I had that nice tight feeling through my arms and I could swear that my quads were showing through again today :-)

What I thought would be a danger-day for eating didnt turn out that way at all. You see every Friday our floor gets together for a morning tea which a small group is rostered to provide. On a good day there'll be some fruit and a few other remotely healthy odds and ends but its usually 90%+ junk food. Often I find that if I indulge, I just cant stop and end up scoffing heaps of the crap on offer. Lucky me!! Today I got caught up on a call and by the time I made it to morning tea most of the food had gone and the left-overs didnt look too appealing. Plus a planned trip to the Adelaide Central Market (another serious danger zone) didnt eventuate as I was just too busy at work. So we have no fish for next week BUT I also missed out on having to resist all the ACM goodies.

So thats the working week over and 5 days of pretty clean and healthy eating in the bag. Weekends can be a bit more challenging but I'm approaching it with a quiet determination to keep things positive and moving forward.

Have a great weekend guys and cheers from

Magda