THE GOAL POST

I've been mulling over what I want to achieve in 2009. Some of my goals are very clear and specific, others arent so and they may well morph into something quite different as the year progresses. I will share them all, nevertheless.

On the drive home yesterday (4 hours in the car) I had another "Oh-I'll-enter-the-12-Week- Body-Blitz-Challenge (run by Womens Health and Fitness magazine)-moment". I was having visions of achieving an amazing transformation and taking out Monthly Winner and then maybe even Overall Winner- oh the fame - oh the fortune. LOL!! But after sleeping on it I decided that I didnt need a competition to drive me to achieve my weight loss because all the drive I needed was right within me. I didnt need to find it elsewhere.

My first goal is to to get my weight down to 60-62kgs and I want to achieve this in 12 weeks which will be very close to my wedding anniversary. This year I want to look smokin hot when WH and I go out to a top notch restaurant to celebrate. A week later I'm off for a girls only weekend to Sydney. My girlfriends are both quite slim and this year and I dont want to be the fat-girl-out. If I choose to shop on the holiday I want to look forward to it and not dread trying to find something that I'll like and that'll fit.

But it goes deeper than that. I long to be happy in my skin and generally happy with how I look. I want to enjoy good healthy food and the occassional treat and I want to feel good - happy, relaxed and not always fretting that I need to lose weight - over and over again.

Yep that goal leads into my next goal of maintenance. Here is where I'll really need Liz's help as the "M" word has always eluded me. I've lost weight heaps of times but have rarely kept it off for any extended period (maybe once or twice). Mastering Maintenance will be my biggest challenge I think but its worth working for as I want to be free of the constant diet mentality.

Then there's the "C" word. To compete or not to compete that is the question. I have a quietly burning desire to do it again and I'm prepared to work for it. But there are things brewing in the pipelines for us as a family which will effect my competing plans although nothing is set in stone yet. This goal may change during the year but right now one eye is set on that date in September (which I have to check in case its changed again).

For some time now I've been wanting to overhaul my wardrobe but have been loathe to spend the money on fat clothes. Its my goal to ditch everything that is unflattering, unsuitable, dated, cheap and ready for donating to charity and then slowly replace with quality items. I'm talking designer pieces and quality and I'm prepared to do it slowly and properly. I like to look good because it makes me feel good and clothes play a big part in that. Oh the fun of all that shopping mwahahaha

I'm not sure what work will bring. I'm due to finish in my current job in September when Miss R returns from maternity leave. I dont want to go back to my previous job (but I can and I may well have to). Premier Mikey (Mike Rann) handed down the doom and gloom half yearly budget just before Christmas and announced that several (about 1600) public service jobs will go and that means packages for those severing ties with the trusty and secure public service. I have moments of squealing "pick me pick me" and I feel all fired up about a new career and then I have moments of doubt and wonder if putting our nice lifestyle at risk is worth it. This one needs a lot more discussion and contemplation. Watch this space....

Finally if there was one thing that I wanted for 2009 it would be BALANCE. For me this means getting to my goal weight without starving, without weighing/measuring and logging every crumb, without giving up the treats I enjoy (wine, Diet Coke, bread, nuts, cake) but happily having them in moderation and by doing training that I enjoy and that gets me results. Balance is eating well 90% of the time and enjoying treats in moderation. Its going out to dinner and ordering what I feel like, not what I think I should have (and then not enjoying it). Its handling stress, boredom, frustration in non-food ways and not giving into the urge to eat til you'll explode. Its having the time and energy to devote to my family and knowing that I'm there with them 100%. Thats what balance means to me.

Magda