Sunday, June 07, 2009


A big thank you to all the lovely and kind ladies who left comments on my last down in the ditch post. Each and every comment struck a chord in my heart and made me feel a little better and certainly not so alone in my struggles. Some even brought a tear to my eye and reminded me how selfish I was to not take the time to congratulate others on their achievements and successes (GO KERRY!!!!).

Its scary to acknowledge that I clearly am my own worst enemy. For too long my lifestyle has been ruled by self sabotaging thoughts and behaviours. Through various thoughts and actions, I set myself up to fail and then when the inevitable happens I make sure I blow it out of all proportions so I can really beat myself up over it and then wallow in my misery and self-pity, reinforcing how hopeless I am. This has hit home lately and I'll be taking these words of wisdom to the SP with me in a weeks time (I think I'll even email them before my next apppointment). Man, have we got some work ahead of us!!

For now I've decided to give the diet shit a rest. For one week I will NOT do any of the following:

1. Trawl through my bookshelves, resources, internet etc looking for the "perfect diet /program".
2. Weigh every morsel that I eat so I can log it with 100% accuracy on CalKing.
3. Analyse and re-analyse my food so that my marco-nutriet ratios are just right.
4. Eat as though there is no tomorrow. Instead follow 3 easy steps: 1. Engage brain. 2. Open mouth. 3. Feed only until satisfied.
5. Whinge and moan on my blog.

I will replace these behaviours by doing the following things:

1. Focus on eating for good health and enjoying the foods I like in moderation.
2. Drink more water/herbal tea.
3. Take some of my training back to basics and only do what I enjoy. Its not about 100% effort now, its about consistency and just doing it.
4. Turn the "Negative Nelly" switch off and be positive ... even if I have to fake it til I make it.

Thank God tomorrow is a holiday. I had a great sleep in this morning (at least I'm not sleep deprived) but its bed time now so I'll bid farewell.



Kek said...

"Back to basics" is sometimes exactly what we need. When you're in a really low place, either physically or mentally, it's ridiculous to expect that you can perform the way you do when everything is perfect. So setting really lofty goals is an almost certain recipe for failure - which reinforces all the negative thoughts we already have, and the cycle continues.

So setting small achieveable goals is often the key. If you make your exercise goal something simple (like maybe a walk), you're almost guaranteed success. It may not be a big deal in the grand scheme of things, but it allows you to tick off an achievement and NOT feel like a failure. And at least you're doing something, not sitting on your butt, moaning.

Treat this like you would a physical injury or illness and amend your plan accordingly. You wouldn't keep up the hardcore training if you had a broken leg, would you? Plan B is definitely required...

Magda said...

Thanks Kek and thats sort of how I figured it for now. Expecting massive training sessions or really strict/tight dieting right now just isnt going to cut it. My head just isnt there so a more moderate approach is my best bet.

I like the way you think.



Kerry W said...

I love the way Kek thinks too. And I love the way you're thinking about the next week too! A balanced approach is always best, even though it isn't always easy to do.

Magda, I hope your motivation returns when you start to ENJOY YOUR EXERCISE AND FOOD. Maybe you've grown a little stale in this area. As the saying goes...'Variety is the spice of life'. It may give you a renewed perspective on things.