Monday, June 22, 2009

ROUND 2 WITH THE SP

Today I had my second visit to my Sports Psyche (SP). Funnily enough, because I’ve been so busy with work, I had decided to cancel it but ironically it was because I was so busy that I didn’t get around to making the call. Then last night I found myself in a situation that confirmed how important it was that I make that meeting today, no matter what. Down the track I might share what it was but I cant just yet.

So today’s session was a real eye-opener. It took a while for me to get on the same wavelength that she was on because I just couldn’t see things that way but slowly step by step I got there and went WOW (not a good WOW but a light bulb moment WOW). I can now see why I repeat my binging behaviour over and over and it was a bit in-your-face I must admit. I can also see why I just wasn’t able to work it out myself. I needed somebody to take me through it step by painful step, ask pertinent questions, question my thoughts and feelings and put it all together to get where I always take myself. Then it was the deconstruct process (that needs more work but the seed has been planted) that we tackled and I finally felt I had an understanding of it all and hope that I would learn to manage this in future. I havent had that feeling before so this is PRETTY BIG for me.

So my "home-work " is to recognise my negative thoughts around eating and write them all down. We identified some today but I'm sure there are more lurking in different situations. My SP also made some interesting statements about what my triggers actaully are. And they ARENT the most obvious things that spring to mind. Hence another WOW moment and more thinking about it all and moving towards an answer.

But the thing that impressed me the most is that she has prepared a plan for what we need to do over the course of our sessions. Yes its all there in black and white and I can refer to it anytime and track our/my progress.

I dont want to get too smug too soon but I cant help that I finally feel good about this and can see some positive changes happening in the future.

:-) Magda

7 comments:

Shar said...

Sounds like a very productive session Magda, so good to work through things with someone else.

Lightbulb moments can be confronting but are very valuable, I hope you can put these to good use now.

Shar x

Kristy said...

Sounds very positive Magda :)

Hilary said...

Sounds like you had a really worthwhile session Magda, its great to get an experts perspective sometimes!

Hilary xx

Kerry W said...

Hey Magda

Wow...how great is must feel to come such realisations. You can only move forward from here! Stay positive!

I found a great little quote...hope you like it. :)

"Being myself includes taking risks with myself, taking risks on new behaviour, trying new ways of "being myself", so that I can see how it is I want to be."

Kerry W said...

Sorry...forget to give author's name...Hugh Prather...

Hilds said...

Wow, that's exciting Magda! It sounds like you are really ready to change and you will be changing the things that matter most.

Enjoy the journey!

Magda said...

Thanks Shar and Hilary, having someone that I can work this through with face to face is shaping up to be the best thing. Onwards and upwards.

Highly recommended Kristy.

Thanks Kerry. Your quote is spot on. I have to find new ways to "be myself" and repalce some old negative thoughts with new thought processes. I have an interesting journey ahead.

Hey Hilde, I'm just gearing up for an awesome change for the better. Long overdue!

Cheers all

Magda