Wednesday, September 12, 2007

MY DECISIONS

As you can all tell I’ve stumbled yet again and fallen over (off the diet bandwagon). Yet again I have to find my way up and move onwards and forwards. It gets harder each time.

But I will do it…somehow! I will finish this journey even if at the end I’m not 10% body fat and weighing 52-53kgs when I step on stage. I will NOT throw the towel in now no matter how attractive that seems at times. I know for sure that if I choose this easy way out, I will regret it for the rest of my life.

I have spent the afternoon coming up with a bit of a personal eating plan to get me through the remaining 3 ½ weeks. It wont be easy but I will just have to take it one small step at a time and hope I get the results I want.

I have also decided that at the end of each week I will plan all of my training sessions for the following week and post my schedule on my pantry door. I need to see what’s planned and have the satisfaction of ticking it all off as I complete it. No more of just seeing what I feel like (in terms of cardio).

I’ve set myself a personal rule and that is that I will not blog any more negative issues like “oh woe is me, this is so hard” or “oops I’ve stuffed up again”. This is just happening too often and its time to deal with these challenges before they become disasters OR sort them out personally. My blogs will reflect my achievements (no matter how small) or I’ll be quiet.

My last goal is to spend time EACH AND EVERY day looking within and getting my head in the right place. In fact this should be my first goal as its undoubtedly the most important one.

So til I blog tomorrow with a much-improved state of mind its farewell for now.
But before I go I will say a very big thank-you to Combatgirl, Charlotte, Claudine and Nic for your comments which go a long way to explain how I’m feeling, what I’m going through and why this is all happening. Your support and encouragement mean a lot to me so THANK YOU.

Magda

5 comments:

kerryware said...

Magda,

Stick to it like glue. Just one day at a time.

I know it doesn't feel like it, but you're almost there.

Splice said...

Magda,
if you don't blog because you feel that's its negative then your defeating the purpose of blogging!
It doesn't always have to be up beat and happy, it's about you and your journey isn't it.
And maybe we can help.
The roller coaster ride is normal especially for the fisrt comp prep (I know your getting sick of hearing that one!) But it's true.
HAng in there hun.
Deb

Claudine said...

Magda,
I would be sad not to read you anymore, but you do what you feel is best for you! I think its normal to feel how you feel right now, with the pressure, the stress and everything else in life... but you have the right attitue: not giving up!!! Because you're right, you would regret it a long time :)

Courage! You're almoste there! XXX

Pip said...

SO CLOSE NOW MAGDA!!!!!

3.5 weeks will FLY BY! You look damned great now by the way!

One day at a time, even break it down one hour when necessary!

The pics of you competing will prob be passed through generations!

Keep up the top effort!!!

Pip

Charlotte Orr said...

Hi Magda, I agree with Deb. If you don't say when you are having trouble, we won't know when to offer you encouragement. When your mind starts to play tricks on you, even writing down how you feel can help, and having people who have been through it before and can offer support will help even more. Best wishes, Charlotte